It was a year ago today, at around 8:30 in the morning. I received the call that would forever change my life, my mother had died. We had known it was comming, yet we didn't want to believe that it had happened. There were many questions left unanswered, and many feelings unresolved. A hatred was born for those who were related to her, since they decided to ignore those born to her, and in front of the family proceeded to speak ill of the dead. I hope that in the end karma will return the favor. Today in my life I feel different, and yet not. I am being pulled so many different ways I want to scream and yell, I want to cry, and I want to smile, and it isn't fair. I hate that fact that so many people out there take for granted the family they have that love them and will do anything for them, and I had a mother whom I wanted to love who baisically tossed me aside as if I were dirty...and yet I still hurt that she is gone. I hope all of you out there, will embrace life, love you family, cherish those close to you, and for all that is lost.....always know there will be hope.