So many times we take things for granted. We look out the window and assume it will all be the same the next day. The sun will rise, taxes will be paid, and that our daily routine will always continue. Yet for many it does not occur, and for some life alters in just one earth shattering minute. I can not believe how much I say "life's too short" and how I should "live life to the fullest" and I am not. I go to work, sit at home, and don't risk anything. I can't believe it, me...the postive thinker, is also the biggest hypocrite in the world...ok maybe not in the world but right now I feel that way. I think I need to take chances, but to be honest I am scared. I don't want things to backfire on me, and I don't want to hurt those I care about, or those who I may care about. People say to start small when making changes in life, I am sick of taking small steps...I want to make a big change, and I want to take chances on something new, I have always protected my-self from harm...no not harm but being hurt, or placed in a situation where I could be hurt emotionally...or hell even slightly physically. Life is too short folks, and this time I mean it...I am tired or being a drone, and I am tired of being what people expect me to be....I have fought too hard back from all that has happened to me and that has made me afraid of what I want most........to live. Watch out world....the hypocrite dies today.

PS....I am ok...this is not a sad note...this is a note of awaking...I plan to be around for a loooooong time

AHHHHHH, Let me go back to sleep, I don't want the work week to start. I wanted to stay in bed today, or be outside enjoying this beautiful day right now. It is about 50degrees here, not a cloud around. I would love to curl up on a bench and read a great book. Or walk along the beautiful city streets of Chicago, instead I am sitting at work....looking out the window.

GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!