Ok folks its that time again. FFAF is now open. Post a funny story or a quick hello, I know that my last posts have been kind of down...unfortunatley that is how I have been feeling. BE folks feel free to post in your 30 seconds. It is your chance to invade my blog enjoy.
Today is Free-For-All Friday! Free for All means you can post whatever you want on my blog. Say what you want to say, share a link, complain about household appliances, etc...all you have to do is login and post!
Here's how to do it:
1. Go to http://www.dizzyscorpio.com/admin/mt/mt.cgi
2. Login/Password: guest/freeforall
3. Click on "Create Entry" on the right
4. Enter a title
5. Type what you want to type in "Entry Body" and if it's really long you can also use "Extended Entry"
6. When you're done, change "Post Status" to "Publish", and click "Save"
I guess I have avoided talking about how I feel right now, but sitting at this job, and knowing that I am unhappy just makes things worse. Though I didn't know my mom for a long time it still hurts beyond belief that a woman would toss away her children the way she did. I go from feelings of loss, to horrific feelings of anger. not an anger of why did she die, it is why did she do what she did. Why couldn't she try to talk to us. Why did she decide to abandon us in her life, were we so bad. I don't know. I just know that right now I sit at work and I am trying to concentrate and find it impossible to do so right now at this moment. Usually I am a very hard worker, just right now I don't know how else to explain it. I am caught in a catch 22 situation I have to work because right now I am in debt over my ears from the time I took off at work, however on the other hand, I feel like I need a change, or time or something....I just don't know what. I hate feeling so angry, and confused.
Well folks I am back home for now. I have finally decided that I am going to move up to Chicago. I love it there, it feels like home, and well I think it is time for a change. So I am currently putting my resume out all over to see if I can get a job up there.*crossing fingers*. On a lighter note if you want to see the pictures I took while I was there I have uploaded them into flickr and you can check them out by clicking the link on the right hand side of my website.
I want to thank everyone who left kind messages here on my site or contacted my directly in regards to the death of my mother. Every single comment every single statement has made me realize how truly greatful I am to be a blogger and be a part of such an amazing community.