Today Friday May 12th, I think I may have finally lost my mind, completely. I did not go to work today because last evening after comming home from which was a good day I walked in the door put my stuff down and colapsed to the floor, I couldn't get up and that is where I slept. I don't know why I have stopped eating, or barely eating, I can't concentrate anymore, I don't sleep maybe 2-3hrs a night if that, my apartments is a disaster zone and prolly should be condemed and I want to clean it, and I try and can only do a little and that's all. The stress of everything is taking its toll, I have begun to yell at my cat, and just loose my in general. I have tried to stop and meditate the stress in my life I think may have gotten to be too much for my body to cope with.

I just realized I haven't updated in a while and again it is because I am extremely busy. I am doing a lot more work for
BlogExplosion and I am enjoying every minute of it. I also I am working more at my real job, and still attempting to find a place to move, which so far I have had no luck. So come June 1st I may be in some trouble, but I am still working on it, and on top of that other things in my personal life have seemed to go up in the air. I hope that soon I will have some semblense of normality I will post more here.