Today I was told that I am not able to get a job I really wanted. The reason behind it in my mind was stupid but hell what do I know. I think that it is a sign that I will need to stay put and do a better job where I am. I am sure that I will. I plan on putting my nose to the grindstone and making this work. I hope eveyone out there is having a good week so far, and let me tell you if I can hang in there...we all can.

I have never felt so stressed as I do now. Money is the root of evil, I hate it and wish it would go away. I relized that I have bills comming out of my account and no money to cover them. I don't know what I am going to do. Money I was relying on isn't comming at least not until later, and then on top of that once it does come it will be covering the bills I need to pay, leaving me no money for food, gas or cigarrettes. I hate this I can't wait until this is over, and I have a steady income comming in again. The stress of my job, and this, and other things in my life is just getting to be too much. I don't know how I am going to deal anymore. Well I know I will, but right now...I feel very over whelmed. Grrrr.