Yesterday I finally told someone the truth about something that I really needed to. I am so happy that we are still friends after that...it is so very important to me. I may stay away from this blog for a little while not long, but right now my attitude isn't very internet friendly. I found myslef in a fucked up situation this past monday, I wish I could go into details but to be honest it hurts way to much to try. Things were going so well for me, and then in less than 2 days everything crashed around me, and what sucks even more is I feel more alone than I have ever felt. Many of my friends are either trying to be parent right now, some are not hear even to make me laugh, others are too involved in the situation but are trying really hard(thank you). As I have said many times on this site I turned a new leaf and tried to think positive and overcome all the adversity I have encountered. Right now this is too much for me to do that. I am overwhelmed I want to run and hide and yet I want to go out and get trashed(don't have the money), I hope that the internets forgive me, but if I told the situation I think people would understand, I am not good company right now, and until I can get this resloved I won't be. So I herby put Dizzyscorpio on a temporary hiatus, it could be a day...it could be a month. I will miss everyone but please understand I will read any comments left and I may pop in to Blogexplosion on the rare occasion, I just need some time without any thing else to worry about.
I love you all, thank you for your words of support during my surgery and my woes...and I promise I hope to come back soon.
Meli
Well it just so happens yesterday I woke up in horrible pain, I couldn't even lift my head. I then found out I have a double ear infection and sinus infection. Then the doctor gives the best news I have not yet completely healed from the surgery they sent me back to early. Hopefully by Monday this nightmare will be over. It has been a really crappy week and I am so over it right now. I wish I could run away. Everything was going so good...and the BAM crap. I am trying to think as postive as I can, my bills are paid, I still have a meager income comming in, I have great friends who care about me and want to see me do well, and I can eat most regular food again. I hope that this week will turn around somehow and someway to a more postive end...I would love to be able to feel a little relief soon.
Well so much for my first day back. I showed up and found out that no one was there to coach me back into my position. So I sat and read some updates and left, nothing else I could do. I was so aggrevated. Well I guess another night at home, hopefully tomorrow will be better.