Today I finished all my pre-op stuff and found out my worst fear had come true. I am an asthmatic and my worst fear is a breathing tube, well today I found out that they will have to use one during the surgery and I may be awake when they take it out. I have been trying to stay calm this whole time and yet I am finding it harder and harder to do. I can usually retain my calm and cool nature but today I want to curl up on my couch and cry, and not do this at all. I know I don't have a choice this surgery must be done, and I can't way to be out of pain and back to work. I have been through much in my life but I am so scared right now, I mean terrified, and I don't know what to do, everyone tells me it will be alright and I believe them however it is not that simple for me right now. I wish I didn't have to do this.

I hope everyone out in the blogosphere is having a great weekend. I have decided to shoot for a goal on my blog, currrently I have 781 comments so buy the end of Feburary I would like to have 1000. I will continue to post during that time, except when I am down after my surgery. Well folks you have been challenged help a girl out recouping from surgery and let my comments soar.

And while you are leaving a comment check out my newest renter...Haunted House Dressing...I picked it just for the title, it goes so awesomely with my theme. So show go show him some love and click on his thumbnail to the right.