First off yes, I know there is an ad as the lead post, but as we all need money it was a good decision.

Ok now to my post.

It is Thanksgiving Day and I am reflecting on that I am away from "home". It makes me wonder about that term. What is home. Is it where you live, or where your family is, or even just where you exist. I have always thought of home as something unatainable. I wanted it to be something magical, where I could come in the door and know that is where I belonged. I have found that while in NC I feel comfortable here, but I wonder is it the good friends that I have made, or is it the enviorement, or even just the fact that I am not dealing with the bitter cold. I know that when I think about going home for 10 days in December I don't like the idea...not because I don't want to visit...I do but it is more I will be out of my element. I don't know maybe it is too much to think about on a holiday.lol.

I realized though that I am no longer lonely. Which is a big thing for me. I have very good friends who I cherish, and I no longer feel the need to have to have someone "special". Not that I wouldn't enjoy it...but it isn't a requirement to be me. I like that, I am trying new things like foods I would have never tried, and things in the past I would have never admitted to liking...like comic books.

Maybe I am finally embracing who I am....I am a geek....and finally I can say I am proud of who I am...and never wish I was someone else.